David's Dance

 In 2 Sam 6:21-22 David says, " I was dancing before the Lord...I celebrate before the Lord.  Yes I am willing to look even more foolish than this, even to be humiliated in my own eyes!"

His dance before the Lord was so bold, daring even, that his wife called him disgusting, shameless, and vulgar.

I wonder what this dance looked like.  But even more I wonder what I would look like, feel like, to express my love to God in worship uninhibited.   Sometimes in church I am compelled to kneel down, to jump up, to raise my hands, to shout, to hug others.  Yet, I don't.  I am always aware of who is around me.  I don't want to draw attention to myself.  I don't want people to judge me, either positive or negative.  But, mostly I don't want my worship of God to be misinterpreted by those around me.  I don't want people to think that I think I am somehow better or more holy. 

At home I put on praise music, and pray, and try to put myself in that same place I feel when I am at church.  But, there is something different in the feeling I get when I am with other believers.  I feel more aware of God and the desire is stronger at church to let myself worship how I see fit.  At home, where I have the freedom to be myself, with no one around to judge, it is not the same.  There is a reason that God wants us to gather together in corporate prayer and worship each week.  We are better when we are together. 

I envy David.  He may have been humiliated in his own eyes, but he danced anyway.  He could not contain the love, thankfulness, and joy he was experiencing.  I am thankful that God knows my heart.  I pray that God would make me a Bold, Courageous, and Obedient Servant of His Word.